life is so exciting that it's really amazing. you can't predict what's gonna happen tomorrow even if you think you do because you just can't. everything is in relation with other things that anything can happen. like a ball game a player has good and bad days on the court, gain experiences along the way and come back from mistakes, go through injuries, recover with help, or if not, move on to do something else like golf, like it and become the best of it, or leave it and try baking and starts an international business earning big bucks year round. as long as one come back at something, it's amazing what can happen.

yeah they are not sponsoring visa for me, but really, i'm not disappointed. was emailing virginia earlier on:
"... Somehow I'm really not disappointed or anything. It's weird but I believe that things will work out because if God has brought me this far to where I am right now He'll take care of me. It's really quite a relieve to know the answer of getting a visa or not and move on from there. I'm enjoying my work at Club One - I'm learning alot alot from my manager and other trainers, having a good time meeting new people. At the same time I'll be starting in looking at options for the near future, whether I would like to go back to school or some other stuff. Comes down to it again is money, but I think if I really want to go for what I want it'll work out...."

who cares where i'll be after a year. who cares what i'll be doing then. well i guess i do, but i mean things are not as bad as it seems. in fact i'm really looking forward to what's gonna happen! open myself up to all sorts of opportunities, i really don't know what will happen and i can't wait to find out ;) the past 2 days have been tough but funny how i find strength in others who are just there for me when i need them. from all over the place. all the way from Singapore and England and right here in SF. times like this i realize how creative people are too. simon called me yesterday and talked for 45 mins, that guy loves to talk! and i still find one of his suggested option too funny - making a dowry to chia so i'll get to stay and keep the money in the family too..! america is f-up man, reversing and messing with the chinese thinking. and hey simon said this himself.

it's friday! i love it :):):)

'but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.' - Isaiah 40:31

gotta sleep in till 9am because my work schedule is being switched from the morning shift to the afternoon/evening shift starting today. waking up feels funny just now, no more annoying ringin of the alarm clock to shock me up to an attack like each morning for the past month, and i can actually relax before rushing off to face the crazy day. the only thing is that i will only get off at 10pm, hmmmph... i'm not sure which is better, starting 5:30 in the morning or ending at 10 in the evening.

but then it'll be exciting to face another bunch of crowd in the gym, and i'll be learning from other trainers at how they do their stuff which will definitely help me in progressing faster. can't wait!

it's funny that when mom called me last night she talked to me like i'm still a little girl who doesn't know anything... basically she was talking 98% of the time, telling me to learn more stuff at work and budget my expenditure and things like that.... basically things that i already know and i'm already doing. hmmph sometimes pressure like this is just not very helpful, i'm just glad i know i'm doing a pretty good job surviving out here so that doesn't bother me.

darn my body is hurting quite a bit... basketball against those big guys are not really that easy. and speaking of basketball, still debating whether i should keep that pair of basketball shox xplosive... those are so coool looking....! aiyaaaah maybe i should just keep them lol.