Labor-free weekend...?

so it's towards the end of the last long weekend before thanksgiving... another 2.5 hours before the next day begins at 12am. i was both ready and not-so-ready on the past friday for the weekend... due to the GRE exam which i took on Sat.... and as expected, i was off to a shitty start. i was having the before-the-game-nervousness on the way to the test site, even with my bro's prayers and cl's hugs and kisses they couldn't quite calm the jiggery feelings dancing all inside me. long story short, i had my game face on and did the whole darn test, and the immediate results bounced back to hit my face flat. the verbal scores were lower than expected while the quantitative scores were the other way round.... why? why? why??!?!? i couldn't even bear to open my eyes wide to look at them, and that little peek i took threw me off. if only they average it out!!! arghh........... i thought i did the verbal part well too. shucks..... now i probably have to retake it again...

so i was the ultimate bi-ach that whole day.... everything and everyone annoyed me and i yelled so much that it was like the worst pms mutiply by a hundred times. really.

but sunday was good. the 3 of us plus doggy drove to santa cruz, ate some tasteless burritos when we couldn't find the original burger place we had in mind, walked the broadway strip with all the amusement park stuff with my bro and towards the end of it, i convinced him to play this game where you shoot water from this gun at the target so this platform thing will rise and you compete with a whole row of people so if your platform touches the top first you win. At first we were the only 2 people so i thought it's great since if 1 of us lose the other will still win. but when it was about to start 6 other kids sat down and i was like darn it.... so we had to compete with them but my bro actually win in the end.... it's so fun to win!!! and he got this plush dragon:

i feel like a kid again!!

and today is doing nothing... went to dim sum and then grocery shopping, car wash and fillmore walk to get present for bro's gf. the best thing we did was cooking dinner! our mommy will be so proud of us *tears*. eating nasty food outside like that bubble zone place makes me appreciate homecook meals SOOooOOo much more.... now with just a good night's sleep i'll be ready for another crazy week...

OMGoodness I'm SOOO stupid

after writing a whole post and uploading its pic and getting all excited, i finally put on my new jordan mach III and guess what..... they are actually FOOTBALL SHOES.

omg omg omg. i feel sooooooooo stupid!!!!!!!! and i thought they are basketball shoes because some idiotic staff has put that shoe among all the basketball shoes on the rack!! and jordan didn't play any football so why the heck is he putting his name on the darn football shoes?!!?! arghhh..... of course i found out after looking at this cool tag that came with the shoes and recognized none of the big beefy dudes on there... only when cl pointed out "jordan football" on the bottom of the shoes did i realize.... ARGHH...... feel cheated of my joy....

i guess i'll return them this weekend. darn it. stupid jordan. i'm glad my battleground (pic below) is still number 1 in my heart.

mine's all black! (>.<)

my new bball shoes!!!!!!

yesterday after church went walking around stonestown with cl and of course the first thing we did was to go into copelands to look for his bball sneakers... but in the end i came out with a new pair of shoes as well...

JORDAN MACH III!

it's so cool! it's so light! it has my size! and it's on SALE!! so i just can't help but to take it home with me... yeah i know i can't pivot for another 5 months with my bummed knee but i can take that time to break it in...

1 year 2 days later...

... and i am writing again. it's been such a long time that i forgot how to log into my blog page, and trying several times later i finally figure it out. since the last time i post, i've got a new dog, a new job, new school plans for the coming future, a wedding coming up, 2 best friends married, lost a few pounds, trying to gain back another few pounds, wisdom teeth removed, left ACL replaced, left meniscus repaired, met new friends, caught up with old ones, laughed a whole bunch, cried a few tears, and so on and so forth. can't remember everything off the top of my head. but it seems that life is more real than ever before.

i'm homesick.

i miss daddy and mommy.
i miss wen and mike.
i miss my uncles and aunts.
i miss hong kong.
i miss singapore.

i miss home.

:'(

it's 1 in the morning, a wednesday morning. just showered, and i don't really want to go sleep yet. not that i'm not tired, but i just want the moments that happened today to stay fresh alittle longer in my mind.

earlier today was my last day at YB. a 3 to 10pm shift, my schedule was pretty much booked up due to training most of my clients for one last time before i go away for some time. the only break i had was 4-5, and when i finished training TK, i saw in the schedule book that i needed to see my boss. thought maybe he had something for me to do but then we just ended chatting for a while. so at about 4:30 i was walking out to check on the floor and stuff when then i was called back into the trainer's room... and the staff had a cake for me...! DJ brought it in and FL gave me a gym bag with lots of goodies in there... and the best part was that there was a card for me signed by the staff with different messages from each of them... i was filled with such mixed emotions i didn't know what to feel, all i knew was that i didn't wanna cry.

As i carried on throughout the day with clients, different staff walked up to me to give me hugs and goodbyes as they took off for the night, like xan, DJ, Jon... VB even waited for me for 1/2 hr so i could finish my training just to give me a hug. and Hong gave me some egg tarts. even members. i felt bits and pieces of sadness and sweetness.

after work AP and Regula were still sticking around, so we decided to go out for dinner. went to the chinese place on irving since that's the only place we knew was open late, and we had so much food. by the time we were done, it was past 12 and it's been a long time since i hanged out with my friends till late. i realized how much i miss it, and i love the feeling of hanging out with them. and they treated me dinner. i didn't know what to feel except that i didn't really want the day and night to end.

but now i know what i'm feeling. it's sadness of parting something that i enjoyed so much doing, with the people in it whom make it so so much wonderful. it's realizing the happiness i have in working with the people there and with that looking forward to seeing them each day and week has been taken for granted this past year. and now realization hits me that i'm officially ending this part of the journey, i realize that i can never be prepared for this even though i see it coming. i'm never good at leaving somewhere, someplace, someone... all these years, it is still the same.

and now i'm waiting to see, with puffy eyes, what's the next part of my journey.

okok, so it's almost end of July... and it's almost end of alot of things for me on my side. and of course, the start of many as well...

moved out of willits and into ellis. it's a really nice place here, even though there's so much crap on my part all around the house. the past year i feel as though i'm grown 10 years older instead of 1, so i'm actually glad to leave behind the 'days of our lives' series in the old place. if you don't know, that means drama that doesn't involve me but around me that can be annoying. i'm pretty much done with other people's silly girly problems.

living with someone else can be really be challenging. but situations like this really help to understand each other better. and also to make you a better person because you realize how much crap you can have in your own life and personality that people around you don't really have to tolerate if they don't love you. and so i pray to God that He will help others to bear with me.

leaving Club One next week. looking back all the way till now, i can say it's such a wonderful experience. i feel as though i've got a family there and it sucks knowing that everything is finally coming together and i have to leave. Bittersweet.