just finished lunch and can't believe it's 3pm already. i was really hungry for awhile but then i was only able to eat a portion of that chinese food i bought, not that great but good enough to fill an empty stomach. it's so ironic that being a health and fitness professional i never do a good job in taking care of my body - food wise. i do great with injury treatments and prevention and things like that but somehow when it comes down to food I never do a good job, even though the knowledge is there in me.

it’s like smoking – people know all those bad stuff in a tiny cigarette but they still puff their lungs away. Well my situation is not that bad but you see the similarity there, not practicing what you know is good for you. And there are thousands of examples out there, from slacking in time management to speeding on the freeway to not wanting to get your butt off that couch to move around so that the next cookie you eat might clot your artery, it’s a wonder how smart and dumb at the same time the human race has come to. Alright I’m getting off topic so back to where it is – I’m working at eating well, I’m trying at the very least.

Apart from improving in eating better I also find myself continue to grow in maturity in this new stage of life I’ve come to. Working in the new environment is teaching me so much about becoming a more confident person, the result of getting out of my comfort zone and going through bum situations. It’s only been slightly more than a week working at club one, and I’ve already found myself screwing up the first client orientation yesterday. The feeling was worse than losing a ball game by a shot and I just can’t help feel that way. And funny that it’s only me putting anal expectation on myself while my coworkers and managers recognize my first try. Thankfully I have someone who came along and help me up, accepting the way I felt and reminding me that I can overcome them. And making sure I eat too ;) and i find myself getting back up quicker to try working better with a member. And for sure I did better today. :)

Life is full of uncertainty. but it's cool, for what's bigger than than? it's that peace you ask for.
phil 4:6-7